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ladyv624
ladyv624
ladyv624
Wed, Aug. 15th, 2007 05:47 pm

"Hey There Delilah
whats It Like In New York City?
Well I'm a thousand miles away
but girl tonight you look so pretty,
Yes you do,
Time Square is worse looking than you
I swear its true.

Hey there Delilah
don't you worry about the distance.
I'm right there if you get lonely,
give this song another listen.
Close your eyes,
listen to my voice it's my disguise,
I'm by your side.

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
what you do to me.

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
but just believe me girl
someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar.
We'll have it good.
We'll have the life we knew we would.
My word is good.

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say.
If every simple song I wrote to you
would take your breath away
I'd write it all
even more in love with me you'd fall,
we'd have it all.

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
but they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way.
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
that none of them have ever felt this way.
Delilah I can promise you
that by the time we get through
the world will never ever be the same,
and you're to blame.

Hey there Delilah
you be good and don't you miss me.
Two more years and you'll be done with school
and I'll be making history like I do,
you'll know it's all because of you,
we can do whatever we want to.
Hey there Delilah here's to you,
this one's for you.

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
what you do to me."

I hate having to start off entries with yeah, I know, it's been forever since I've posted, but oh well, that's the way it's got to be. I have now officially moved to Scotland and am finally moved into my awesome new flat. I had to stay at a friend's house for a little while because the letting agents were being really slow about doing the final inspection of the flat so that the girl whose room I moved into could move out. But yeah, now I am in my own room in my new flat and it's really great. Euan is staying here with me until the beginning of September when his lease starts so that's really nice. I like that he's been staying with me because it means that we get to spend more time together. He works from 5:30 to at least 1:30 every night so that means we don't get a ton of time to spend together during the day...something I've been taking a little harder than I thought I would or should. I thought that moving over here would be completely simple and problem free but it turns out that I have been fairly homesick and being alone at night has made it a bit harder. I'm actually quite disappointed in myself because I pictured myself to be a pretty strong and independent person, and it's hard to realize that maybe you need other people more than you think you do. Unfortunately, my loneliness has led me to be a bit more moody than usual and I hate that I'm acting like such a jerk sometimes but I can't seem to help it. It's pissing me off so it must be irritating Euan to some degree and I really just hope that soon I'll be completely adjusted and back to normal. Anyways, moving on. We've been having a good time during the days...the weather hasn't been to bad...just a bit inconsistent really. My room here is finally starting to feel like room/more like home and I feel very comfortable here. I'll be excited when all of my friends finally come back up here because it feels so odd without them here. But yeah, I still have a lot of things to get done in the coming days. I have recently found out that it is extremely difficult to get a student back account in Scotland if you are an international student so I am going to have to jump through a lot of hoops before I can actually get one, but I have hope that it will eventually work out soon. Well, I think I shall finish organizing my room now...I promise to right more often now that I have internet. Till then...

Current Mood: disappointed disappointed
Current Music: Hey There Delilah- Plain White T's

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ladyv624
ladyv624
Tue, Jun. 26th, 2007 09:44 pm

"I keep hearing you're concerned about my happiness.
All that thought you're giving me is conscience, I guess.
If I were walking in your shoes, I wouldn't worry none.
While you and your friends are worrying 'bout me, I'm having lots of fun.

Counting flowers on the wall,
That don't bother me at all.
Playing Solitaire till dawn,
With a deck of fifty-one.
Smoking cigarettes and watching Captain Kangaroo.
Now, don't tell me I've nothing to do.

Last night I dressed in tails, pretended I was on the town.
As long as I can dream, it's hard to slow this swinger down.
So please don't give a thought to me, I'm really doing fine.
You can always find me here, having quite a time.

Counting flowers on the wall,
That don't bother me at all.
Playing Solitaire till dawn,
With a deck of fifty-one.
Smoking cigarettes and watching Captain Kangaroo.
Now, don't tell me I've nothing to do.

Well, it's good to see you, I must go, I know I look a fright.
Anyway my eyes are not accustomed to this light.
And my shoes are not accustomed to this hard concrete.
So I must go back to my room and make my day complete.

Counting flowers on the wall,
That don't bother me at all.
Playing Solitaire till dawn,
With a deck of fifty-one.
Smoking cigarettes and watching Captain Kangaroo.

Now, counting flowers on the wall,
That don't bother me at all.
Playing Solitaire till dawn,
With a deck of fifty-one.
Smoking cigarettes and watching Captain Kangaroo.
Now, don't tell me I've nothing to do.

Don't tell me I've nothing to do."


I'm bored. I was so very stupid to think that I would be okay without a job to keep me occupied for the summer. And I've learned me lesson...trust me. This will be the last time I don't work. Seriously. I just feel like a great big worthless lazy slob. Yuck. Luckily I've only got about one more month to go until I head to Scotland. In fact, I bought my plane tickets today so I am officially heading to Scotland for two years on August 4th. I cannot wait for that day to get here. I've been able to talk to Euan almost every day so that helps quite a bit, but one of my big character faults is impatience, so waiting for such an important day to get here is pretty hard.

So I remember that Euan said once that I'm pretty bad about not dividing up paragraphs in my entries so here you go. Guess it makes it easier to read or something. So...what I've been up to. Not too much. Went up to Atlanta for my birthday and met up with Sarah. It was a great day. Just what I needed. We spent the evening at Dave and Busters playing games and having dinner and then we headed back to the Westin hotel where I had gotten us a room for the night. Well anyways, we were chatting with the concierge while they checked to make sure our room was ready, and when he heard that it was my birthday, he upgraded us to the special club level and gave us an awesome room. Sarah and I then hit up the Palm Bar which is in the hotel and spent the night having a few cocktails and some good conversation. The hotel room had an awesome tv so we decided to order a movie and ended up watching Hot Fuzz, which is such an awesome movie. It was such a good night.

In the morning, we ordered a big breakfast and then I headed home. I was ridiculously tired on Sunday so I lounged about for most of the day and then went out for a birthday dinner with my dad. Got most of my gifts, including a very nice one from Euan :D , on Monday so it was basically like my birthday went on for three days, which was nice. But yeah, that's about all that's been going on with me. I've been trying to read a lot as the summer time is the perfect time to do that, so hopefully I'll get through a few good books before I leave. I think that July will be a bit more exciting than June...mainly because some of my friends are coming home soon and I will be doing a little bit of traveling so that will help pass the days. Well, I'm off to the gym now (another of my summer time goals is to workout a good bit) so I'll finish it up. Basically I'm just hoping that the days will fly by...I just need to be in Scotland.

Current Mood: impatient
Current Music: "Countin' Flowers on the Wall" - Eric Heatherly

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ladyv624
Mon, Jun. 4th, 2007 10:10 pm

"How soft a whisper can get
when you're walking through a crowded space.
I hear every word being said
and I remember that everyday
I get a little bit closer to you.

How long an hour can take
when you're staring into open space.
When I feel I'm slipping further away,
I remember that everyday
I get a little bit closer to you.

These are the days
that I won't get back.
I won't hear you cry
or hear you laugh.
And when it's quiet
and I don't hear a thing
I can always hear you breathe.

You know there's nowhere else
I've wanted to be
than be there when you needed me.
I'm sorry too,
but don't give up on me.
And just remember that when you were asleep,
I got a little bit closer to you."


Sooo...wow, so much has happened since I posted last. First things first...I have officially graduated from Davidson so that is really really great. I finished really strongly and I've got to say that I'm pretty proud of myself. Graduating wasn't as hard as I thought it was going to be and I think that's because I really am ready to move on to something new and I just have so much to look forward to in the future. Both Euan and Benton were there for graduation so that made the day really special. Euan also stayed for two weeks after that which was so amazing. After we left davidson, we stayed in macon for two nights, catching up with friends and going to an amazing Braves game with Sarah. Euan had never seen a baseball game and he really liked it! My dad somehow managed to get us these awesome seats right on the visitor's dugout so that and the fact that the Braves crushed the Mets made it a really great experience. After that, we headed down to the beach for about six days. I had such a great time and it was just the right amount of relaxation that I needed. We did a lot of swimming and played a lot of miniature golf nad basically just hung out and chilled together, which was just sooo nice. Sometimes I forget how nice it is just to hang out and talk to him...I think that's what I miss most when we're not together...that not being able to just BE together. We also spent a day on Cumberland Island which is this island on the Georgia/Florida border that is essentially a wildlife reserve with wild horses and other creatures. You have to take a ferry to get there so we packed a picnic and headed over, and we did a whole lot of hiking and ending up falling asleep on the beach, the result of which was some serious sunburn :( At one point we were a little worried (okay, I was a little worried) that we were going to miss the ferry back but luckily we didn't. It was such a great time. After the beach we spent a few more days in Macon and Euan helped me pick out my brand spankin new HP laptop that is seriously aweosme and I love it. Unfortunately I cannot seem to get the wireless router to work so it is internet-less at the moment sadly, but oh well. It's still very new and shiny. A huge improvement from the loud monster that is my former laptop. Anyways, we spent Euan's last night here in Atlanta looking everywhere for a Pizza Hut that I think doesn't really exists and getting a big hole in my tire that we had to get fixed the next day. I finally got to watch the Reno 911 movie which was hilarious and we finished up one great trip in style at a nice hotel. I'm not sure I've ever cried as hard as I did when he left...I'm just so tried of waiting til the time when we don't have to be apart anymore because I'm pretty sure it gets harder everytime we have to do it. I am so ready to move over to Edinburgh that I think I am going to go nuts just thinking about it. It's so hard when you just really want something to happen and you have to keep waiting and waiting. I've done over a year's worth of waiting and I am sooo ready to be done with it. But...I have to wait...in Macon...ugh. I really hope these two months can just fly by...

Current Mood: lonely lonely
Current Music: "Closer to You" - The Wallflowers

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ladyv624
ladyv624
Thu, May. 10th, 2007 11:10 pm

"Thursday's crush is a Friday night rush
And a Monday morning cry
It's the tail that you keep chasing
And it gets away every time

New Years Eve and it's hard to believe
Another Zodiac's gone around
While you drank yourself high on hoping
And watched the ceiling spin from the ground

Counting down from ten it's time
To make your annual prayer
Secret Santa in the sky
When will I get my share

Then you tell yourself
What you want to hear
Cause you have to believe
This will be my year

Pound your fist and cross it off your list
But you know you're not that strong
When the man at the stop light catches you
Singing along to a brand new song

Well maybe it's
Trash or the overnight smash that brings a
Ship crashing through your wall
So you can make your grand departure
From a world getting way too small.

One wheel in the ditch another
Spinning in the air
Put your pedal down to the floorboards but you're not
Getting anywhere

Then you tell yourself
What you want to hear
Cause you have to believe
This will be my year
This will be my year."


Study break!! I know it's been, yet again, a good long while since I've written an entry so I thought I'd interrupt my exam studying session to update everyone who still reads this about what's going on in the world of Page. Probably the best thing right now is that it is one week until Euan gets here, which makes me unbelievably excited everytime I think about it. We are just going to have the best time and we're going to do so many fun things, like going to the beach, seeing a Braves game, and going to Six Flags. And oh yeah, lots and lots of relaxtion. I know he needs it just as much as I do so it will be sooooo nice to just hang out at the beach and chillax all day. It seems crazy to say that I will be graduating in nine days. Wow. Four years of extremely hard work will finally come to an end...I wish I could sum up in one word how I'm feeling about it, but I just can't. Most of me feels just so ready to go...like I'm ready to start the next phase of my life because I know that it is going to be even better than this one. But there are other parts of me who walks around campus and looks at things that I wouldn't notice everyday and I just realize that nothing is ever going to be the same again and that's pretty scary. Leith, I know you still read this (at least I think so!) and your last letter really hit on what I'm feeling...I'm brave, and I know I am, and I am ready and excited about going out on my own and proving that I have what it takes to be independent and strong, but there's still that tiny ounce of fear that what if all of my plans and hopes don't come to anything. I hate to admit that I'm still a little scared because I build myself up to be this person that thrives on adventure...and I do...but I guess I am just feeling very nostalgic at the moment...which can only be expected. I guess the really good thing about senior year is that I have finally realized who the really important people are in my life and have finally let go of those who held me back or were just negative parts of my life. I've learned to stop listening to my mother who always, for no apparent reason, constantly doubts me, and instead listen to my friends who believe in me and trust me. Oh ow! I just really banged my elbow...ahhh, right on my funny bone :( Anyways, I should probably quit with the talk about feelings and other deep shit like that because I need to stop over-analyzing everything. Sooo...here's what left. Three exams...one take home, a trip to Chicago, and then....graduation...with a lot of crying and celebration I would imagine. And then the best week and a half ever. Start the countdown......

Current Mood: nostalgic nostalgic
Current Music: "This Will Be My Year" - Semisonic

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ladyv624
ladyv624
ladyv624
Sat, Apr. 21st, 2007 02:57 pm

"Listen dear
I need you to hear.
I cannot disappear.
I've tried again and again and again.

I know we said
that we'd give up.
You said we'd had enough,
again and again and again.

But you, you're always on my mind.
It's like this all the time.
Say it's cause you're mine,
all mine...

And if you will, I will
try to let it go.
And if you try, I'll try
try to let it show us the way
'Cause love is here to stay.
Just look me in the eye,
this is do or die.
And I will stay in love
'til you say enough.
There is no giving in,
there is no giving up in love.

Walk down the street,
stare at lots of things.
The fast and steady streams
again and again and again.

Do what I should,
try to stay busy.
Your face is all I see
again and again and again.

But you, you're always on my mind.
It's like this all the time.
Say it's cause you're mine,
all mine...

And if you will, I will
try to let it go.
And if you try, I'll try
try to let it show us the way.
'Cause love is here to stay.
Just look me in the eye,
this is do or die.
And I will stay in love
'til you say enough
There is no giving in,
there is no giving up in love.

Like a movie I once saw,
in the darkness I recall
feeling the beauty and the pain.
And when you call my name,
say you feel the same.

'Cause if you will, I will
try to let it go.
And if you try, I'll try,
try to let it show.

And if you will, I will
try to let it go.
And if you try, I'll try
try to let it show us the way.
'Cause love is here to stay.
Just look me in the eye,
this is do or die.
And I will stay in love
'til you say enough
There is no giving in,
there is no giving up in love.
In love.
In love.
We're in love.

I cannot disappear..."


So once again I have waited way way way too long to update. I can't even remember the last time I posted...probably sometime before I went to Scotland for easter break. Yeah, that trip was pretty much the best ever. I won't list everything awesome that we did because that would probably take up the whole entry...but the best thing of all was the Barenaked Ladies concert. It was just....wow. Amazing and everything I could have wanted. It was the best anniversary that I could ever imagine. So yeah, needless to say I didn't want to come back but oh well, I had to. I have three weeks left of real school. It hasn't really hit me yet how little that actually is. I have two assignments left to do before exams...then three exams...and then, that's it. That's all. Then I graduate. Wow. I have been wanting that day to get here for so long. Graduating will be a confirmation of the really hard work I have put into doing well at this school. It has taken so much out of me and I just need to leave. But enough about that...I've been very busy this past week with lots of work and it should be the same way for my couple of weeks...luckily we got my politics and film professor to push our big project back about a week because there was no way that I was going to get it done in time...at least done well. Well, I should probably try to get some work done as that was my goal for today, although I haven't been very productive thus far. Hope everyone is doing well...

Current Mood: anxious anxious
Current Music: "Again and Again" - Jewel

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ladyv624
ladyv624
Tue, Mar. 27th, 2007 02:51 pm

"Honey, I know you've been alone some,
why don't you 'phone some, 'cause I love you.
And honey, I know I've been away some,
I've had to pay some and you have too.

But the one thing I know, that when I, I turn out the light,
visions of you, dear, dance in the night.
I've been put down, pushed around, apprehended and led downtown.
And I can't help it if I'm out of sight,
'cause I'm restless tonight.

I just can't stand being alone.
Gonna have to change that some day.
There's a restless feelin' in my bones and I know
that at times, it just won't go away.

So if it's all the same, honey, I can't take the blame, baby,
I can't play your game, honey, what's true is true.
And if, in the end, the temptation wears you thin, honey,
I'll just pretend that I'll leave it up to you.

But the one thing I know, that when I, I turn out the light,
visions of you, dear, dance in the night.
I've been put down, pushed around, apprehended and led downtown.
Can't help it if I'm full of fire.

But the one thing I know, that when I, I turn out the light,
visions of you, dear, dance in the night.
I've been put down, pushed around, apprehended and led downtown.
And I can't help it if I'm out of sight,
'cause I'm restless tonight."

So, I was pretty bored of reading all of this stuff for my history class, and I saw that Euan had posted so I guess I got inspired to post something myself. Can't say that there's been much going on in life. Just the daily grind. I've been somewhat busy with take-home tests and lots of reading, but it hasn't been too bad. I think I've reached the point at which senioritis is starting to set in...I mean, I go to all my classes and do all my work...it's just that I'm lacking all motivation to do it and I really have to force myself to sit down and read/write or whatever it is I have to do. Graduating is a really scary thought but by this point I am just so ready to go. I just feel so ancy and restless here...sometimes it's hard to sleep because all I can think about is the future and how good I think it will be. At least I hope it will be. Thinking back on everything, it just seems like everyone is different...I mean, I know I am too but I guess I just don't feel right at Davidson like I used to. But yeah...basically I just want to graduate and then hope that the summer flies by. Never thought I'd say that but I basically just want to get back to Scotland as fast as I can. Not sure what I'm going to be doing during the summer...job searching of any kind is another thing I haven't been really motivated about. Okay, well I really need to get back to my reading. Ugh. Bye all.

Current Mood: restless restless
Current Music: Restless - Alison Krauss

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ladyv624
ladyv624
Fri, Mar. 16th, 2007 12:07 am

"All of these lines across my face
tell you the story of who I am.
So many stories of where I've been
and how I got to where I am.
But these stories don't mean anything
when you've got no one to tell them to.
It's true...I was made for you

I climbed across the mountain tops,
swam all across the ocean blue,
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules,
but baby I broke them all for you.
Oh, because even when I was flat broke
you made me feel like a million bucks,
yeah you do and I was made for you.

You see the smile that's on my mouth
is hiding the words that don't come out.
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed,
they don't know my head is a mess.
No, they don't know who I really am
and they don't know what I've been through like you do
and I was made for you.

All of these lines across my face
tell you the story of who I am.
So many stories of where I've been
and how I got to where I am.
But these stories don't mean anything
when you've got no one to tell them to.
It's true...I was made for you.
Oh yeah it's true that I was made for you."


I suppose it's been too long a time without an entry and there is quite a bit to talk about, so here goes. For spring break, I headed over to Scotland. Had a very difficult time actually getting there because there was some really bad weather in Georgia (think tornadoes) and my flight to Atlanta was cancelled. So after crying to the poor Delta guy about how much I really needed to get to Scotland, he found me another set of flights that would go to London and then on to Edinburgh. Of course, I was going to take whatever I could get, so I did eventually end up in Scotland the next day...just a little later in the day than I had orignally planned, but hey, I got there. Once there, I had such a great time. I was finally introduced to the wii, and I tried very hard not to become addicted to it, but of course I eventually succumbed. It is soooo cool. Especially wii sports...so fun. Anyways, the weather was surprisingly quite nice and Euan and I even got to have a picnic in the botanical gardens...although there was this really freakish squirrel who kept getting really close to me...I was really afraid that it was going to jump on my head or something. That squirrel was seriously crazy. So all in all, my trip to Scotland was really fun but I still hated to leave...even though I know I'll be back in less than three weeks, which is so amazing. Plus...I'm going to see Barenaked Ladies play in Glasgow with Euan and the gang and I don't think I could be more excited. Seriously. If I was any more excited, I might spontaneously combust or something. And in other awesome news, Euan is going to be able to come for my graduation! This makes me very happy because it means that he can finally meet the rest of my friends. Also, he'll be staying for almost two weeks which means that we can do some really fun things, like road-tripping and the like. Hmm...what else has been going on? Oh yeah, I went with Sarah and Rachel to see the 300 last night and I have to say, that is one of the coolest movies I have seen in a long long time. Well okay, maybe not that long. Hot Fuzz was pretty awesome, but man, the 300 is so badass. So yeah, Euan, I won't have a problem seeing it again! It's so great. Yeah, so today pretty much the entire student body gathered in the union to watch Davidson play Maryland in the NCAA tournament. We ended up losing by 12 points which is not at all a reflection of the game. It was close the entire time and Davidson played so well..it sucks that we lost but at least we gave them a really good fight. Okay, I really should be looking over my notes for my "midterm" tomorrow so I think I'll go do that. Night all...

Current Mood: excited excited
Current Music: "The Story" - Brandi Carlile

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ladyv624
Thu, Feb. 22nd, 2007 11:36 pm

"Well I was sitting down talking to myself again,
I pick up the phone, you're on the other end.
Sometimes to talk to you is all I need
to make me feel at home again.
We can talk away the time like it was yesterday.
You make me feel like I feel when I sit down and play.

And I understand it's not how we ,
but we'll make it.
Just call me inspiration.
I remember your voice at the station,
you whispered to me at the station
just call me inspiration.

And you put down the phone, I feel so alone.
Sometimes I just can't stand it.
But it's all worthwhile when I see that smile.
I feel like I'm up a mile high.

And I understand it's not how we planned,
but we'll make it.
Just call me inspiration.
I remember your voice at the station,
you whispered to me at the station,
just call me inspiration.

We'll these past few weeks I've had time to remember
those times we spent together.

The days we just decided. to stay inside
to be with one another
And those times they mean so much to me.
And you have to know how much you mean to me.
And I really really want you to be with me
'cause I love you.

And I understand it's not how we planned,
but we'll make it.
Just call me inspiration.
I remember your voice at the station,
you whispered to me at the station,
just call me inspiration

Just call me inspiration.
Just call me inspiration."


I'm meant to be writing my little film review paper for my Politics and Film class but I've basically been looking for any way to get distracted from finishing it. It only has to be about two pages so that's very easy...I just can't seem to get motivated to do anything today. My head hurts so bad that it just distracts me from everything and makes me feel so lazy. The weather has suddenly gone from quite cold to pretty warm which is strange as its not even March yet. I am really going to be glad when I can finally live somewhere that isn't so hot all the time. It's less than a week now until I leave for Scotland and I just really need this week to go by quicker. That and I really need these headaches to stop because I don't want them to put a damper on my trip. That would be really annoying, although I don't think anything could stop me from being incredibly exciting about going to visit. I feel like I'm going to feel differently being there this time because of the knowledge that I will be going back for grad school in the fall...I'm hoping that that will make it easier to leave but I'm pretty sure that's a bit idealistic. I really need to get motivated on the job search front but seriously cannot force myself to really get it done. I'm thinking of applying for a paid internship at the Southern Center for International Studies in Atlanta...I guess that would be a pretty good job. I just don't have a desire to really go anywhere to work, but I don't really want to be in Macon for the summer either. Euan wants me to come to this huge music fesitval in July where Snow Patrol and Damien Rice will be playing among many other great acts, and I really want to go but I'm not sure if I can because of job/money issues. Hopefully I can work something out. Okay, well I'm going to try to finish this paper so I don't have to do it tomorrow morning...night all.

Current Mood: lethargic lethargic
Current Music: "Inspiration" - Stevie Nicks

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ladyv624
Thu, Feb. 15th, 2007 11:27 pm
"As I walk away
I look over my shoulder
to see what I'm leaving behind.
Pieces of puzzles
and wishes on eyelashes fail.

Oh, how do I show
all the love inside my heart?
For this is all new
and I'm feeling my way through the dark.

And I used to talk
with honest conviction
of how I predicted my world.
I'm gonna leave it to stargazers,
tell me what your telescope says.

Oh, what is in store for me now?
It's coming apart.
I know that its true
cos I'm feeling my way through the dark.

Trying to find a light on somewhere,
trying to find a light on somewhere.
I'm finding I'm falling
in love with the dark over here.

Oh, what do I know?
I don't care where I start
for my troubles are few
as I'm feeling my way through the dark,
through the dark.
I'm feeling my way through the dark."

I really should be going to bed because I am soooo super sleepy but everyone's been posting so I figure that I probably should be as well. February has been going by a lot faster than January, which is both good and bad. Good because I really realy really want Spring Break to get here because I want to see Euan so badly and it just feels like it's been forever since I've seen him. On the other hand, feelings of fear keep hitting me sometimes because the end of this semester means graduation, and that is just such a scary thing to think about. I've really re-connected with some of my closest friends here recently and the thought of leaving everyone behind is both exhilerating and sad...which really clouds up my mind as to how I'm feeling. On the positive side, right now I am really feeling better about myself than I have before. I am really happy with where I am in life, both in terms of academics and also in terms of my relationships, both with Euan and my friends. I think I'll feel even more confident once I get some questions answered...mainly what I'm going to be doing this summer and secondly I really need to figure out where I'm going to live when I move to Edinburgh in the fall. I'm just the sort of person who likes to have things sorted out rather early, although I know that in the case of housing that probably won't be sorted out until later. Oh well. Well, I guess all I have left to say is that I hope everyone had a pretty good Valentine's Day. I was pretty bummed for most of the day because it was hard not to be able to spend my first real Valentine's Day with Euan, but talking to him and then hitting the town later that night with Janelle and Sarah really helped to cheer me up. We had a really good time out in Charlotte and it was just so nice to spend some real quality time with them. I'm also very comforted by the fact that it's just two weeks now until I head to Scotland and that's not too long...although it's going by too slowly. Well, I'm getting up early-ish to run some errands so I'd better hit the sack...goodnight all.

Current Mood: cold cold
Current Music: "Through the Dark" - KT Tunstall

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ladyv624
Sat, Feb. 3rd, 2007 01:47 am

"Everytime I think of you,
I always catch my breath.
And I'm still standing here
and you're miles away,
and I'm wondering why you left.
And there's a storm that's raging
through my frozen heart tonight.

I hear your name in certain circles
and it always makes me smile.
I spend my time just thinking about you
and it's almost driving me wild.

But it's my heart that's breaking
down this long distance line tonight.

And I ain't missing you at all,
since you've been gone... away.
I ain't missing you,
no matter what I might say.

There's a message in the wires
and I'm sending you a signal tonight.
You don't know how desperate I've become
and it looks like I'm losing this fight.

And it's my heart that's breaking
down this long distance line tonight.

And I ain't missing you at all,
since you've been gone... away.
I ain't missing you,
no matter what my friends say.

And there's a message that I'm sending out,
like a telegraph to your soul.
If I can't bridge this distance,
stop this heartache overload.

I ain't missing you at all,
since you've been gone... away.
I ain't missing you,
no matter what my friends say.
I ain't missing you.

I ain't missing you,
since you've been gone away.
I ain't missing you,
no matter what my friends say

Hey, yeah... yeah
Yeah, yeah
I ain't missing you at all,
since you've been gone away.
I ain't missing you, no..."

I'm really not sure why I'm writing this because I should really be in bed right now but I just wanted to write a little bit down before I hit the sack. It has been quite an interesting week over all. I've been feeling pretty ill for about a week and I went to the Davidson health center where they told me I had a sinus infection and gave me a variety of medicines to take. So anyways, one of the main problems I've been having is these really really bad headaches. Well one of the medicines I was given was for that and it turns out that I had this major reaction to it and had to go to the emergency room last night. It turns out that I'm okay and all that but, not surprisingly, do not have a sinus infection. Whatever. But yeah, not fun. Benton was here earlier in the week which was nice. We had a very relaxing time filled with shopping and movies. Oh, and for anyone who hasn't already, go see Pan's Labyrinth because it is really really good. Sad, but good. Anyways, I'm trying play it low-key this weekend in hopes that I will start feeling better, because it's about time. I'm so excited that it's already February, because it means that I have less than a month until I get to see Euan again. I can't stop thinking about how much I miss him. I just hope this month will go by quickly because it's driving me nuts. Anyways, it is late and I really should be in bed, so I'll head out. Hope everyone is well.

Current Mood: listless listless
Current Music: "Missing You" - Tyler Hilton

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